How much i miss her.

As long i can remember my grandmother was my mother my friend, my mentor and everything else. She's been gone now for a year and i still feel her here with me like she's not gone, i still wake up on Sunday thinking I'm going to visit her as usual. She was sick for a while before she past away, a lot of health problems, she was in and out of the hospital, couldn't walk anymore had to be in be all the time, had to be fed, cleaned etc etc, i knew that she wasn't comfortable with that situation, been that she was such an independent woman hard worker, and seeing her self in that situation was painful for her. I have never seen my grand mother cry on my younger years until she saw her self in bed. My heart was broken, my kids were worried for her, she has been in their life ever since they were born, for my kids she was grandma the only one they knew. I remember when i use to cry in her lap, or talk to her about my problems, she always had the answer for everything, we didn't always agreed but i listen, lol we use to use to fight too, but is normal it happens even in the happiest family. She use to be so funny when she want it too, she was my HERO! and i miss her sooooo much at times i cry like a baby thinking of her.

  I don't think that any body will ever replace her, or have the impact she had in my life. My grandma had in total 8 grand kids and 6 great grand kids, and for some strange reason i was her favorite grand child and my kids were her fave great grand kids, every one use to hate it, always making comments, been sarcastic about it, but i didn't care as long i had her love and support she use to tell me "don't worry about  what people think", and i didn't. She used to say if i could give you the world, i would've done it, that's how much she care for me and my kids.