domingo

ayer fue un dia que los ninos y yo nos las pasamos el dia entero en la casa, no tenia ganas de salir y tampoco habia chavo para salir, asi que me puse a doblar una ropa que tenia del dia anterior que la habia lavado y no la habia guardado. Aunque no salimos nos las pasamos chevere qui en casa oyendo musica jugando el nintendo wii y viendo pelicula en netflix, lol mis ninos son bien comico osea todos los ninos creo que tienen algo chistoso en ellos hacen y dicen cosas que para nosotros a lo mejor no tiene sentido pero para ellos es algo grande. Lo baje en la tarde a comprar helado y despues que subimos los bane le di de comer y las 9 los mande a dormir , les prepare su ropa para el dia siguiente para ir a la escuela y yo hable un rato con mi esposo y despues me dormi, y como siempre kenny se paso para mi cama como a la 2 de la manana....asi pase mi domingo con mis ninos....

cayendo duro

hoy amanecio el dia lloviendo mucho, pense que el cielo se iva a caer de tan fuerte que esta cayendo el agua. Ayer yo note que el cielo se nublo de repente y se puso oscuro, pero no pense que iva a caer tanta agua, de mi  parte cuando es dia esta asi no me gusta salir, el dia esta para estar echado en la cama viendo pelicula y dormir todo el dia. Pero asi tuve que salir a llevar a los ninos al colegio pareciamos tres chiflados corriendo para no mojarnos mucho, pero fue en vano para mi llege a casa empapada hahahahaha. los ninos no tanto pk tienen sombrillas, espero que no me emferme de la gripe luego, eso es seria el colmo. La verdad que no me gusta mucho cuando llueve pero estoy consiente que es parte de la naturaleza y que sin agua no podemos vivir, los arboles, plantas, frutas vegetales, animales , y los seres humanos nesecitamos el agua y la lluvia refresca y alimenta el medio ambiente...... 

God

As I lay me down,
Heaven hear me now.
I'm lost without a cause
After giving it my all.

Winter storms have come
And darkened my sun.
After all that I've been through
Who on earth can I turn to?

I look to you.
I look to you.
After all my strength is gone,
In you I can be strong
I look to you.
I look to you.
And when melodies are gone,
In you I hear a song.
I look to you.

About to lose my breathe,
There's no more fighting left,
Sinking to rise no more,
Searching for that open door.

And every road that I've taken
Lead to my regret.
And I don't know if I'm going to make it.
Nothing to do but lift my head

I look to you.
I look to you.
After all my strength is gone,
In you I can be strong
I look to you.
I look to you.
And when melodies are gone,
In you I hear a song.
I look to you.

My levees are broken
My walls have come
Tumbling down on me

The rain is falling.
Defeat is calling.
I need you to set me free.

Take me far away from the battle.
I need you.
Shine on me.

I look to you.
I look to you.
After all my strength is gone,
In you I can be strong
I look to you.
I look to you.
And when melodies are gone,
In you I hear a song.
I look to you.

     i will always look up to him, my savior, my lord..

"Didn't know my own strength"

Lost touch with my soul
I had nowhere to turn, I had nowhere to go
Lost sight of my dream
Thought it would be the end of me

I thought I'd never make it through
I had no hope to hold on to
I, I thought I would break

I didn't know my own strength
And I crashed down and I tumbled but I did not crumble
I got through all the pain
I didn't know my own strength

Survived my darkest hour, my faith kept me alive
I picked myself back up, hold my head up high
I was not built to break
I didn't know my own strength

Found hope in my heart
I found the light to life my way out of the dark
Found all that I need here inside of me

I thought I'd never find my way
I thought I'd never lift that weight
I thought I would break

I didn't know my own strength
And I crashed down and I tumbled but I did not crumble
I got through all the pain
I didn't know my own strength

Survived my darkest hour, my faith kept me alive
I picked myself back up, hold my head up high
I was not built to break
I didn't know my own strength

There were so many times I wondered
How I'd get through the night
I thought I took all that I could take

I didn't know my own strength
And I crashed down and I tumbled but I did not crumble
I got through all the pain
I didn't know my own strength

My faith kept me alive
I picked myself back up, I hold my head up high
I was not built to break
I didn't know my own strength

I was not built to break, no, no
I got to know my own strength

This is a beautiful song, which words describe how i feel sometimes. It reminds me not to give up.

sleepless nights

 So here i am is 11:41 pm and i'm still wide awake, knowing that i have a job interview tomorrow morning, i don't know what's going on with me lately, but i haven't been able to sleep well. Is not like  i'm doing much just siting here in front of the computer writing while i try to watch criminal mind and listen to music at the same time, wow! what a combination don't you think? lol  and believe i am tire, i want to close my eyes but when i try doing it i just be tossing, flipping, and moving all over my bed without any luck. That's a reason of why i pay a visit to the doctor i'm to young to be going through what ever it is going on with me, maybe is lack of vitamin or something. I do know i don't focus as i use to and pretty much i'm always tire. Wondering what's wrong with me? i wont lie i am a little scare and worry of what it might be. Hopefully its nothing wrong and its just stress and anxiety i prefer that than something extreme or not curable. Maybe that's the reason of why when i wake up i always have a body ache in the mornings, maybe is the lack of sleep that is causing my body all this pain and a comforting feeling. I could go weeks going to sleeping at 2 or 3 in the am and its very frustrating, but i need to figure something out that i wont have to take no sleeping pills, nooo way i'm not doing that, i don't believe on pills, maybe natural stuff like tea, roots or leafs might help.

 All i know is that i want to sleep, i want to be able to sleep without been a big deal like any other human being. Is that to much to ask? i don't think so, lol i think i have watch all the episodes of criminal mind, cold cases, without a trace and so on. Ohhh and on top of that my kids come to my bed every single night so you can only imaging, they move a lot and then i'm squish in a corner of the bed so yeah not looking good for me,  that's the story of my life, no wonder i'm always in a bad mood and grumpy, yayyy for me!  

expresiones

La verdad que en estos momentos no tengo mucho que decir solo siento enojo y la misma vez decepcion de muchas cosas, por eso cuando me siento asi me pongo a leer cosas positivas o pienso en cosas bonitas. Casi siempre mi mente esta vagando en el mundo pienso en lo que pueda estar pasando al otro lado de la tierra, que si hay alguien con los mismos problemas que yo. Aunque me sienta triste no voy a dejar que eso me domine ami.

To do list

Things i would like to accomplish and i keep postponing for whatever reason.

 i wonder why sometimes we say we are going to do things and we never end up doing it?. smh well i'm determine to finish every single one of the task above.

family

 My family is compose of 5 members i now will introduce each and everyone of them. 

•  Let me start by introducing myself mama goose! i'm 28 years old , a mother of three, love dancing, reading, going for walks, i'm in love with the 50's and 60's , music is my passion i enjoy all type of music, movies are my weakness i don't discriminate. Love decorating, taking pictures, using my hands, art captivate my eyes, anything weird unique you  name it. I really don't like to cook but when i have to i get down, lol. My family is my everything, i enjoy being a mother and a wife. Family activities is a yes for us. Autumn is my favorite season of the year, the leafs falling down, the change of colors, i love everything about the fall specially my favorite holiday which its Halloween gotta love it is fun.. 

            sooo this is me... lol

•  Now i will introduce papa goose! lol his name is Denny 29 years old a very adorable person, funny caring, loving,he loves kids and i think that's because he's a kid himself. He loves to eeeeat..lol food is his weakness omg can he eat. hahahahah. Reading and learning is one of he's favorite hobbies, his always trying to learn and understand the why of everything, i love that about him. he's a great, wonderful father, and the kids agreed with me just for the simple fact that he lets them get away with everything, i'm always the villain in the movie. lmao... Denny is not my kids real dad, but the kids look at him like he is, he have learn how to earn their love, respect, and attention, they look up to him i'm so lucky to have found a man like him. Mr Vargas has a child on he's own he's name is Angel and that name goes very well with him because that's what he is an angel. Angel is 4 years old and i see him as mine as well no difference between him, Valerie and Kenny they are all my children. Did i mention i consider my husband a very elegant man..lol . 

   This is my soul mate. so handsome..lol

•  Valerie is my little princess, but not so little anymore she's 10 and she's the most beautiful girl ever, smart, humble, sweet, happy, caring etc etc etc things that all mothers think of their child, and mine is not the exception. She's into reading, writing, instrument, drama, dancing, double dutch, she just love explore different things in life and i don't blame her. When she gets older she would like to be a musician i kind it like that idea, i always tell her that she can be whatever she wants to be there is no limit on where she can go in live. She sings beautifully i enjoy hearing singing. Disney is one of her fave channels, she also like GLEE! is been 2 years she's been asking for a pet bu not just any pet a dog a yorkie tea cup which is very expensive and not only that , the dog is like a baby which requires a lot of attention, i'm just going to wait until she's a little older. Her favorite colors are blue and purple. Mommy is very proud of you princess keep up the good work.

             Here's is my sunshine

•    So know i will introduce my lil man kenny G aka blondie, hahahahah the spirit of the house, gosh kenny can be so funny and active lil boy! omg he's very hyperactive, but that's fine with mother and father goose ,lol but with the sister ehhhh sometimes. Kenny is such a boy he eats a lot love video games, he play chess, his a very sweet, his also a mama's boy. heheheheh he would come to me like every 20 mins and say mommy i love you and would give me a hug and kiss and walk away. Planets are his favorite things he loves space universe the milky wave. Kenny can be a little difficult at times, he tries to be a big brother with valulu like telling her what to do but she doesn't like and that's when the arguing and he did this he did that starts (sigh) music to my ears,lol. Very thoughtful young man who i see going very far in life, very polite but also a cries for every little thing. But i love my boy so much i always think of him as my guardian angel.

          Tan tan tan tan and here is mr kenny G

Things that inspire me

 This are a few things that i use on my daily life. Life is a precious gift from god that we all have to cherish and take care like our most dear treasure. There is a reason of why we are here god doesn't make mistakes. Believe in him he will provide. he's real, reach to him and you will see the difference.God loves is so strong for us that he send he's only son to die for use to forgive our sins. He wants you to life your life to the fullest and be happy as you can be.

The lord is my shepherd i lack nothing, he makes me lie down in green pasture. He leads me beside quite waters, he refreshes my soul. He guides me along the right path, for his name's sake. Even though i walk through the darkest valley i will fear no evil, for you are with me your rod and your staff, they comfort me. You prepare a table before me, in the presence of my enemies, you anoint my head with oil, my cup overflows. Surely your goodness and love will follow me, all the days of my life, and i will dwell in the house of the lord forever. Psalm 23.

People are so scared to say it because they’re afraid of rejection. They’re afraid that the feelings won’t be reciprocated and they’ll be totally embarrassed. “Oh shoot! I fell in love with you before you fell in love with me. I won the race—the one race you never want to win!” But WHATEVER. You were being honest. You felt love for this person and wanted to show it. What’s the crime there? Why should we feel insecure about it? I think we forget how easy it for us to actually love someone. It’s just a natural progression for us when we care about someone. When it has to do with friends, we often don’t even think about it. “Oh yeah, I love my best friend. Duh.” So why do the rules change with our boyfriends and girlfriends? We love people for a living.It’s so we can increase our chances of being loved by someone and loving them in return. We all have so much love to give. We were born with it. And when we have no one to give it to, that’s when things can get #dark. Not loving anyone is something to be afraid.  So my advice is this: If you feel like you love someone, you probably do so you should just say it. Life is too short to not let the people we know that we love them, even if we’re not entirely sure they love us back. Like the theme song to the Josie & The Pussycats says, “I love you” is just three small words that we've managed to blow up to a size 40 font.

Being beautiful is a word that people usually confuse, specially females. Girls specially teenagers get depress thinking that they are not beautiful enough, they try to do things to fit in sometimes even put their life in dangerous because of this word. But being beautiful doesn't mean you have to change who you are, we all beautiful in our own way, beauty is in you forget the skin, your weight, the hair and look within, and i bet i will see a beautiful human being. 
 Almost everything–all external expectations, all pride, all fear of embarrassment or failure–these things just fall away in the face of death, leaving only what is truly important. Remembering that you are going to die is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose. You are already naked. There is no reason not to follow your heart. I heard of stories of teenagers, woman, girls who have lost their life in the desperation of not been accept it by others and themselves. God create it each and everyone of us different and unique for a reason why change because somebody else doesn't accept you for who you are? so what if they look different? that's the way it suppose to be. Don't let vanity kill you and change you. 

                         

Spanish

Desde hoy voy a tratar de escribir todo lo que hago en espanol mi lenguaje original. Ingles es un idioma que adopte que con el tiempo se hizo mi idioma principal. No voy a negar que me siento mas comoda escribiendo y hablando en ingles, pero alguien bien especial en mi vida me ha hecho ver y entender que espanol es mi idioma y que tengo que tratar de hablarlo mas y ensenarles a mis hijos. hahahah en estos momentos hay palabras que no se escibir hasi que no dudez de qe el google translator va hacer mi mejor amigo de ahora en adelante (hahahah). Cuando llege a los estados unidos fue pequena asi que se me hizo facil aprender el ingles, el hablarlo, y escribirlo,todos los dia en la escuela, con los amigos, en lugares publicos, que con el tiempo fui olvidando y dejando atras el espanol. Fue como si el tiempo hubiese pasado rapido y ese capitulo de mi vida paso y se perdio, hasta un dia me senti mas comoda con ese otro idioma.


Aveces las palbras me salen mal o la escribo como no es y me da risa por que pareciera que yo estuviese aprendiendo el idioma con que yo naci, una ocasion pase una verguenza bien grande en una entrevista de trabajo querian que traducieran un documento de espanol a ingles, pero yo me quede pasmada mirando el papel y tratando de entender que decia hay fue cuando me di cuenta que de en verdad yo no sabia y no entendia muy bien el espanol. Una cosa es hablarlo y otra es leer y comprender y ese es mi problema. Cuando el senor  me pregunto que que pasaba yo le dije que muchas gracias por la oportunidad pero que yo no era calificada para hacer ese trabajo. Y asi seguro eh perdido muchas oportunidades buenas de trabajo por no comprender. Por eso me propuse a practicarlo y que mejor manera que empezar por aqui donde escribo casi todos los dias mi vida diaria. Estoy un poco nerviosa por el cambio de idioma no se si los demas podran entenderlo pero para eso hay traductor. 




hasta la proxima su amiga 


Suleydy G.

Winners

we all are winners no matter what......... i remember when i was a little girl i use to think i wasn't special and my grandmother always use to come to me and tell me we all are special unique and winners....her words always goes with me everywhere i go and keep that in mind all the time.. I always tell my kids the same thing.

random

the future entertainer VALERIE .R she's going to be the next selena gomez..hahahahah

him and chess.

Kenny is 7 years old he's in second great and also a chess player.. oh yeah chess player love saying that makes me proud, never thought that my Blondie was ever going to be interested in CHESS (WHOOOA) well! he is and he loves it. his coach tell me he has great potential and he could go very far with chess if he keeps applying him self..


p.s proud mom....lol

getting warm...not everybody can play this type of game those kids are great...

the crew! 

ok so he's not so into right now..lol

him and he's team mate cedric, the make an awesome team.

silly boys! what sup duck!! lol

awwww what's wrong with my baby? 

at a chess tournament its a whole day thing so they get very tired and aggravate it ...

like i said long day!

hopefully he wont play a girl cus every time he does he loses...shm i think he doesn't want to be to hard on the ..he's a gentleman.

first round! yuupyy!

getting ready for second round, and guess what the opponent was a girl...smh  hahahah

big sister supporting her lil brother. selling candies and goodies for the team  thank you sisi  you are the best...xoxox

mommy i love look!! lol he kills me with that look....

yeap i got this!!

the beginning of everything

hey! look at justin beiber playing chess...lol

kenny learning how to play chess

what move should i make now...hhmmm! lets see.. lol

the master in progress....

boy don't play with me...hahahah

Her and art

have no idea what she did here but i love it.

love the colors on this pic, cool vaulu!

 she is very creative, it could be dancing, or singing, or acting she is just full of life.....

colorful and fun

i'm guessing its a heart..lol

red means strong and that's what she is